?Love?

So. I don’t even know where to continue. I`m in Bucharest. I hate the thought of being here. And not being at home. With her. Can you make mistakes in a relationship by caring too much? And when is it too much? And when do you start to learn from your mistakes? I guess it depends, from person to person. Can you love somebody too much? And can that hurt your relationship? I have learned that yes it can. Well not directly. Don`t get me wrong. It`s ok to love somebody as much as you can but you can do much wrong being too “in your face”. But why? Why cant I show it, why can`t I be sincere about it? Well that`s exactly it. You make her or him lose interest in you by showing everything at once. You have to put it all in small bottles and give your partner really small doses so you leave them wanting more every time. Well I failed miserably and did exactly the opposite of what I`m preaching here. And now suffering from it should seem just fair. But I don’t want to. I don’t want to suffer just because I`m giving somebody all my love. Where is this wrong? It`s really unfair. Really really unfair. You finally have a person you would do everything for and you can`t…

Maybe it is suffocating, and in the end you can`t force somebody to feel something. They either do or they don`t.

And that`s it!